I need an outlet, I need to vent.... because there are toooo many social medias in which tooo many people will read what I am about to rant about & then ask question, get upset, worried, etc.... and really thats not what I want or need right now. I just want to get out my frustrations.

Egh, just typing on here already has helped & I havent even told you what Im upset about! Yay!

I think that maybe I value my family more than others do... and I find that extremely sad, actually it really upsets me. I am even talking about the own members of my family, for it has been quite a while since I have seen some of them. And of course everyone is busy and has things to do... yada yada, but you make time for what you want to do.... so shouldnt you be making time for your family?

Random: I absolutely LOVE my dog Kaia! She can tell that things are good right now in the house & she is upset..... trying to make things better! TOOO CUTE & only she could soften me right now.

So, frustrated about my soon to be vacations..... I mean in all reality I should thrilled, ecstatic about them, but no I need to find a place for Kaia to stay -- and really thats not the hard part since we have two viable options. The hard part is picking the place. Pros & Cons to each place and of course what makes it harder is that Sean & I arent agreeing right now. So, what to do.... I'm not sure.

I hate fighting with Sean. HATE IT!! So much, that I feel like I give in at times just to make things better. Which I KNOW isnt the best way to go about things. I try hard to listen to the different words of advice for the best way to fight in a relationship & I'm not perfect --- BUT I do feel that I try hard to fight fair. I do NOT feel that Sean does this at times, example-- he was mad so what does he do?? Say the sarcastic mocking comment that only makes things worse & frustrates me more. How am I supposed to respond to that, when it makes me feel like I am going to boil over with anger. If I say anything, Im sure Im going to regret it later. So I keep my mouth shut & walk out of the room to decrease my anger..... at this point thats what I need to keep this from being something really horrible. Not to mention that the "comment" is EXACTLY like something my mom would say. Yet Im sure that if Sean heard this, it would only make matters worse.

So, what to do now..... because I cant stand just leaving arguments & not resolving them.

Thanks for the figurative "shoulder" to lean on right now :)